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gchrocknj @ 2005-03-13T17:09:00

2004-12-01T04:20:11Z

new LiveJournal: xjerseyxrockerx

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gchrocknj @ 2004-11-29T22:04:00

2004-11-30T03:04:28Z

i hate shadyness.

gchrocknj @ 2004-11-28T21:32:00

2004-11-29T02:32:32Z

well, another awesome update..

Yesterday was a really rough day in my household, and me and my mom had a long talk. This spring my mom is leaving. She is moving out, my sister is most likely going with one of her rich friends, and me.. well, I have no clue. My mom doesn't have any money, so where she goes, is not going to be nice, and her chances of supporting me are rather slim. I have no car, no money, no job, no life skills. I have a possibility in moving in with my father in Blackwood, but I don't even think he is able to support me, he has a 2 bedroom townhouse, with him, his fiancee, and her two kids. So, I don't think that could work out. I don't know. I have alot to figure out by the spring. 2006 does not seem like it is going to be a good year.

and, as for a question you had someone ask me..
i'm not mad, i'm dissapointed, and hurt. I take that as a "thank you" for always being there for you. You don't need me, you have all your "friends" there for you. I just get used when they are not around, but when they are, I get forgotten. I'm sorry, but I don't see that being worth it. You know the way I feel, and what I want won't happen, but, it seems friends doesn't seem to be working out too great either. And ya know.. I doubt you even care. So, whatever. If you have a response, don't put it here, I guess IM me.

gchrocknj @ 2004-11-26T22:12:00

2004-11-27T06:35:20Z

So Pull Your Knife Out Of My Back

Well.. tonight was fucking pointless, and left me quite upset, but also made me realize some things. I spent all day trying to find a way to make everything tonight happen, and make sure it was be cool and all. Had to beg.. give up a total of $20 gas money.. (of money that i DONT have), got shit from my family.. and all for what? Nothing. I get ditched, most likely for the kids I hear her bitch about, she talks about how her friends arn't true, this makes question how true she is. End result: the whole night is ruined. Awesome.

I'm My Own My Own Worst Enemy

I'm getting rather sick of always being so nice, and basically doing anything for anyone. Being the "go to" guy when someone has a problem or needs something, but any other time, is forgotten. It's bullshit. I'm starting to figure out who my "true friends" are, and I can really only think of like three that I can actually use that term for. I'm tired of being used, and trying so damn hard. I took 94 people off my buddy list. If you actually are my friend, prove it, cause as of now, i'm "done" with alot of people.

Cross My Heart And Hope To Die

As for girls. I just don't know. It seems EVERY girl is out to play games, and fuck you up in the head. It's bullshit. I'm done trying with girls. It Never works out, so what's the point? If someone reads this that is interest or what not, come to me, cause i'm done putting the initial effort in, and just getting hurt.

I've Said My Piece So Now I'll Run And Hide

gchrocknj @ 2004-11-23T22:49:00

2004-11-24T03:49:31Z

well, we're not playing the December 3rd show now, cause Josh has to go on a family vacation. Awesome. Shit never ends.

gchrocknj @ 2004-11-22T22:19:00

2004-11-23T03:19:53Z

well, my godmother/cousin had her second child over the weekend. She was born with a hole in her heart, and she has been diagnosed with Down Syndrome. She is currently in intensive care, and they are doing a bunch of tests and shit to find out if she's going to be alright. Noone is really supposed to know, but it was leaked throughout the family, and all of our thoughts are with Jada. I think we're all a little speechless about it. She is a part of our family now, and her life is in question. It's not fair, just a innocent little girl..

My grandmother is scheduled to get her hips replaced on December 2nd, then she goes right in to Rehibilitation, so she will not be coming up to spend christmas with us. My mom said she has to wait 3 more weeks to get the definite results to the testing done in reguards to the lump in her throat.

Our household is apparently is not doing good at all with money again. My mom is working two jobs, and my step-dad works about 75 hours a week, but we are still just barely making it. My sister is 24 and still at home and doesn't contribute a dime to the household, and she makes like $400 a week. I really need to get a job and start pulling my weight and helping them out, cause it seems as though it's just not working the way it is now. According to my mom, it's going to be a crappy holiday season.

Out Of Sequence has to drop off the show this friday (26th). We got screwed over and are now just in a crappy position. We have a lot of work to do before the 3rd, which is now scheduled as our first show. We'll see.

Speaking of this friday (26th), it will be 2 years since the passing of my grandfather. I miss him, he was such an awesome person. I love you Popie.

I think i'm starting to loose faith in all this shit ending and the thought of looking foward to better things. I just don't see it happening.

gchrocknj @ 2004-11-16T04:38:00

2004-11-16T09:38:30Z

SKATE AND SURF 2005

May 13th, 14th, 15th

Asbury Park Convention Center

gchrocknj @ 2004-11-14T01:39:00

2004-11-14T06:39:16Z

Well, my grandmother had gone for a checkup or something along the lines of that, and they found a "lump" or something. Now she is getting massive amounts of tests done, because her doctor strongly believes it is cancer. She is still getting the tests, but it apparently is lung cancer. She has to get her hip replaced, she has some bad arthritas, and a few more things that are starting to really get to her. My mom told me yesterday when I got home from the mall, I lost my grandfather a few years back, and now she is not doing good. I don't know, I just really lost it. I don't do well with talking about this shit, or acting with it. I just keep it bottled up, and it destroys me on the inside. I wind up just turning in to an asshole. And to top it off, I lost my cell phone. I apologize to those people at the show last night.. you know who you are, I just don't even know. I turned off the coment option on this post. I don't want to hear "i'm sorry" it's pointless. I don't want sympathy, I am just saying it like this, to get it off my mind, and not get a response. So it's said, and done.

gchrocknj @ 2004-11-04T23:34:00

2004-11-05T04:34:23Z

Okay Okay Okay.

Next sunday. (Sunday, November 14th) i'm going to get my 4th tattoo. I'm stuck between two or three things, but i'll narrow it down and get it inked on my body. So, if anyone wants to come, or is considering getting (another) one of their own, hit up the comments or get it touch with me.

The O.C. season premier was tonight. oh man, amazing, i'm so obsessed. Ryan and Seth came home, WAHOO. Gonna be a really good season. I think I smiled the entire episode. well, except when I got all teary-eyed when Teresa "lost" the kid. Oh wow.

gchrocknj @ 2004-11-02T01:31:00

2004-11-02T06:31:27Z

So, i'm looking to make the ultimate mix tape (cd) and i'm turning to you guys for some suggestions. I'm in need of about 20 totally rockin songs (pop-punk, country, rap, alternative, metal.. any catagory, as long as it's good) to put on this cd, so get commenting.

gchrocknj @ 2004-11-01T01:46:00

2004-11-01T06:46:16Z

well, tonight was fun. Slept till about 1:30pm, then watched football. Both my teams won, Seattle Seahawks, and the mother fucking Pittsburg Steelers rollin on NE, It was beautiful. After that me and Alex went to Sam Ash, I got some shit for my drums, fucking $84, sucked, then we went to Biddy's for a little practice.. couldn't get in touch with josh all day.. hope he's alright, but yeah, after practice, me alex and biddy went to kyles to go "trick or treating". We got to Kyle's and made his costume.. two boxes spray-painted silver, making him a robot, hahaha. I was a Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtle, alex was George Bush with battle gear, and biddy was a BMX rider. we went to get Ian Browne, i missed that kid, he's so fuckin funny. then kyle had to go to some girls house cause she broke up with her bf, and she didnt have candy, so ian pissed on her house, knocked over a potted plant, and knocked over two lights, haha. we winded up driving around for a while, and went trick or treating to ONE house. then came home, it was fun. the origional and most recent GCH members, and Biddy. what a great combo. Blah, I got another week of work to look foward to, i'm a contract painter now. Hours suck, but money is good. peace

Good Times. Great Memories.

2004-10-30T05:08:02Z

Gym Class Hero was so fun, I spent a lot of the night just thinking about all the awesome times we had. I hope Out Of Sequence proves to be just as fun.

The first show at Walnut Street School, me and Kyle got there two hours early, and couldn't get inside.
Getting banned from High Ridge Ice Arena.
Asbury Park: Abandoned buildings, Burger King parking lot, Texico parking lot, waterguns, Mountain Dew(LiveWire), getting pulled over, Kyle leaving a pool of blood, and me breaking a snare head 23 seconds into the first song of the set.
Parking fiasco with Shawn's Bronco at the Pontiac Grille show.
Riding John Fraley's moped from my house to Scooter's to play a show there.
Sayerville: Bus Trip, Nate tripping onstage, dildo.
Cherry Hill East Battle Of The Bands, Talent Show, Mr. East.
"Headlining" Merchantville VFW.
Visit by the "punk rock cop"
The recording ordeal.
A.C. Girls
Sell-out at Breakline Billiards.
Santa Claus at Holly Bowl.
Jordan's oh so sensative car alarm.
Therapy Cafe, had a lack of drums, due to two jackasses.
Origins of song names.. Plecko - a fish that we thought Jordan had, but didn't.. 39 1/2 - Alex "you sucked 39 dicks" - Jason "and a half!"
Ian Browne.
Kyle "this song is called 39 1/2" - Scott "Cheeser's waist size"
The one (and only) Gym Class Hero shirt, worn on stage as Dilemma played with Lucky Boys Confusion.
John Feldman
"She drives me crazy, oooo, oooo"
Kyle robbing Jordan's parent's closet filled with mini alcohol bottles.
Jordan and my thoughts on Kyle being gay for singing "waking up to kissing HIS neck" and bashing him constantly for it.
Shrek..
Airport Circle: herses & black cat
The Lost Cause E.P.
"West has talent seeping through the walls" - the article on Gym Class Hero in Cherry Hill West's newspaper
Kyle clearing out the room with her kareoke cover of Enrique "Escape"

That's all I can recall right now, i'll add more as they come to me. If anyone has fond Gym Class Hero memories, start leaving some damn comments.

New Life Goals.

2004-10-24T22:37:50Z

1. To become Governer of New Jersey.
- Declare war against Deleware.
- Rename it New(er) Jersey.
- Establish no tax law throughout all of Jersey.

2. To be in a famous "big" band.
- Get in better shape.
- Make out with Ashlee Simpson.

gchrocknj @ 2004-10-22T14:45:00

2004-10-22T18:45:11Z

November 19th was cancelled due to conflict. therefore, Out Of Sequence's first show goes as followed:

November 26, 2004...6pm...$8
@ Grand Slam USA
23 Roland Avenue
Mount Laurel, NJ 08054

Out of Sequence
Held in Broken Arms
Chasing Monroe
Useless
Rushmore
Wings of Icarus
The Killing

Special thanks to Deanna (lovethelocals). She's such an awesome child.

gchrocknj @ 2004-10-08T15:52:00

2004-10-08T19:53:40Z

ok. so Friday. Incredible day! Started off typical.. woke up, watched tv, then had band practice. got home, took a shower, then my friend Ashley invited me to go to the Midtown show at the Starlite Ballroom in Philly. She told me she got meet and greet, but didn't know with who. We got there, nice little intimate show, it was nice. Mike Park played, he was good, The A.K.A.'s played, the girl keyboardist is HOTT. Midtown played, they played a really good set, definitly enjoyed them. Stike Anywhere came on and she had to call for the meet and greet, so we got outside to where the bus was, and Tom Morello and Anti-Flag are standing there. It was fucking awesome, i'm not so fond of Anti-Flag's music, but they were really cool guys, and as for Tom Morello.. he's fucking Tom Morello! So we talked and chilled for a little while, then Strike Anywhere finished, and Tom Morello's solo project - The Nightwatchman went on. It was all political, but really good too. Anti-Flag came out, i'll admit, they were good. And, that was my Thursday night. :)

gchrocknj @ 2004-10-08T00:27:00

2004-10-08T04:29:14Z

WHAT AN AMAZING NIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'll update tomorrow.

Teaser - Midtown was awesome. I HUNG OUT WITH ANTI-FLAG AND TOM FUCKING MORELLO!!!!

gchrocknj @ 2004-09-26T07:48:00

2004-09-26T11:49:21Z

This is stolen from some kids LiveJournal. I found it funny.

Tuesday, April 01, 2003

Gym Class Hero

Standing in the locker room
with his head hung low

Forgot his gym clothes
gym was a no go.
Heard the roar of the kids
he could picture the scene.
Put his ear to the wall
then like a distant scream.
He heard one dodgeball
just blew him away

Saw stars in his eyes
and the very next day.
Bought a beat up dodgeball in a secondhand store

Didn't know how to play it
but he knew for sure
That one dodgeball
felt good in his hands.
Didn't take long to understand.
Just one dodgeball
slung way down low

Was a one-way ticket
only one-way to go.
So he started throwin'
ain't never gonna stop

Gotta keep on throwin'
Someday he's gonna make it to the top.
And be the Gym Class Hero got stars in his eyes

He's a Gym Class Hero.
He took one dodegball stars in his eyes
Gym Class Hero he'll come alive today.
In a town without a name
in a humid summer day

Thought he passed his own shadow
by the locker room door.
Like a trip through the past
to that day without gym clothes

And that one dodgeball made his whole life change.
Now he needs to keep throw' he just can't stop -
Gotta keep on throwin' that boy has got to stay on top.
And be the Gym Class Hero got stars in his eyes

He's a Gym Class Hero got stars in his eyes.
Yeah
Gym Class Hero got stars in his eyes
With that one dodgeball he'll come alive

Come alive tonight.
So he started throwin'
ain't never gonna stop

Gotta keep on throwin' -
Someday he's gonna make it to the top.
And be the Gym Class Hero got stars in his eyes.
He's a Gym Class Hero
Gym Class Hero

Gym Class Hero got stars in his eyes
stars in his eyes.

That parody of Juke Box Hero by Foreigner was inspired by our cinderella run at the gym class soccer championship. We were stopped in the title game by bad reffing and our idiot goalie, but damnit we shouldn't of even made the tourney.

gchrocknj @ 2004-09-11T05:24:00

2004-09-11T09:25:55Z

Hung out with Brittney Reap today. She's so damn cool, sucks she's always at school far from here. Had band practice, wrote a fucking Awesome new song :).

crazyness at the races tonight:

Ice Cream Truck
Dissapearing In A Massive Cloud Of Burnout
Car Fire
Firetruck Rolling Up 40 Seconds Later (Not Knowing Anything Of The Fire)
Accident In The Pool Hall Parking Lot
Joe Newton's Bad Ass Van
Awesome Lookout Point
Guy On Wheelchair "Pulled Over" By Two Cops On Rt 70!!

gchrocknj @ 2004-09-09T20:24:00

2004-09-10T00:25:43Z

Possible Band Names
COMMENT TO VOTE FOR YOUR FAVORITE

Hilltop Sorrow
Against All Odds
Clayton
Out Numbered
Skyline Drive
Double Play
All For Nothing
Four On The Floor
Foreshadowing Failure

gchrocknj @ 2004-09-03T18:42:00

2004-09-03T22:43:59Z

well. i was on my way home from taking my sister to work, and saw Chip standing outside of one of the doors at West. Chip is a security guard there, that, over my 4 years of school, was always there for me, and like a best friend, irreguardless of our positions in the school. Although I was nothing even close to the "model student" Chip was pretty much the reason I stayed in West as long as I did, and put whatever effort that I did into that place. We talked about all kinds of shit yesturday and I basically drove away with the thought "do whatever you love, if you don't love what you're doing, don't settle, no matter what anyone says, if you want to do something, you can" and with that in mind. I've decided. This January, I will be at student at CCC majoring in Secondary Education. To anyone who doesn't believe I can do it, you can go fuck yourself, cause you will be proved wrong.

gchrocknj @ 2004-08-28T17:26:00

2004-08-28T21:27:30Z

Sunday, August 29th
Theater Of The Living Arts
MAE

Safe to say I have my Sunday night all planned out. Shits been going decent. Works pretty good, and I enjoy payday very much. Been hanging out with Biddy alot. Cool kid. The band is starting off real good. Fun times. I <3 being in a band. We need help with a name though, so leave me some comments with band name ideas. Girls still suck though. That'll never change. Had a pretty full week, but I don't remember it/don't feel like typing it all. Blah Blah Blah, I need to find something to do tonight.

New cell number - 856.343.5868

gchrocknj @ 2004-08-19T23:28:00

2004-08-20T03:29:13Z

who can help me change my LiveJournal layout and all. i'll give you a smile :(

gchrocknj @ 2004-08-11T18:18:00

2004-08-11T22:19:26Z

well, i'm back to carpeting, meaning i'm gonna be working 12+ hour days monday through friday, so I doubt i'll really be around anymore. so yeah, hello hard work. good bye life.

gchrocknj @ 2004-08-09T01:37:00

2004-08-09T05:38:18Z

I wish I could go back to freshman yeah. Re-write the past 5 or so years. Would have payed attention in school, not dick around and take my chance at education and a good life for granted and piss it away. Maybe not have started GCH and met some of the people connected to it, one especially. Would have payed attention to my mom, and probley of had a better relationship with her now. Even at the point in my life that I am in now, I regret even not persueing the Navy. Could of taken a different approace with some girls. Life is shit right now. Got no money, no plan for the future, no car, no girl, got a shitty relationship with my family, and friends. I know, i should just make it a point to change right now, and make everything better now. But I honestly don't know how. I don't know how to put my life on the right track, so I don't end up like some loser alone for the rest of my life. I just don't know.

gchrocknj @ 2004-08-04T17:33:00

2004-08-04T21:34:30Z

+ Well, work is awesome. It's so easy and really good money. My co-working are all cool as shit, and I get payed to drive around listening to music.

- Girls suck. I give up. If anyone is interested, come to me, i'm no longer putting efford into trying to chill, or putting my feelings out or anything.