well, my godmother/cousin had her second child over the weekend. She was born with a hole in her heart, and she has been diagnosed with Down Syndrome. She is currently in intensive care, and they are doing a bunch of tests and shit to find out if she's going to be alright. Noone is really supposed to know, but it was leaked throughout the family, and all of our thoughts are with Jada. I think we're all a little speechless about it. She is a part of our family now, and her life is in question. It's not fair, just a innocent little girl..

My grandmother is scheduled to get her hips replaced on December 2nd, then she goes right in to Rehibilitation, so she will not be coming up to spend christmas with us. My mom said she has to wait 3 more weeks to get the definite results to the testing done in reguards to the lump in her throat.

Our household is apparently is not doing good at all with money again. My mom is working two jobs, and my step-dad works about 75 hours a week, but we are still just barely making it. My sister is 24 and still at home and doesn't contribute a dime to the household, and she makes like $400 a week. I really need to get a job and start pulling my weight and helping them out, cause it seems as though it's just not working the way it is now. According to my mom, it's going to be a crappy holiday season.

Out Of Sequence has to drop off the show this friday (26th). We got screwed over and are now just in a crappy position. We have a lot of work to do before the 3rd, which is now scheduled as our first show. We'll see.

Speaking of this friday (26th), it will be 2 years since the passing of my grandfather. I miss him, he was such an awesome person. I love you Popie.


I think i'm starting to loose faith in all this shit ending and the thought of looking foward to better things. I just don't see it happening.